A long time coming

I've sat in my room and recounted my thoughts

I've stared blankly until the page distorts

I've always had the confidence to talk in a crowd

But I've never said these words out loud

I've pondered over every detail

And slowly watched my train derail

I've mumbled curved with my head bowed

But I've never said these words out loud

I've research in part and read a little

Become a bit scared and less committal

I'm discovering the lining around my cloud

But I've never said these words out loud

Words change when they are externalised

The writer becomes overly scrutinised

But I’ll take the floor, become the lyrical dancer

And maybe I’ll start to find an answer

I stepped outside of my four walls

Become a man and grown some balls

I've opened my eyes & removed my shroud

And find myself saying these words out loud

Those days of sitting and soul exploring

Of unconscious ambition ignoring

Have consented and I am now allowed

To share and say these words out loud

And so good people, whoever you are

Will this be my hello or my au revoir?

My fate has been handed to my crowd

As now I'm saying these words out loud

You came un-expectant to this open mic

Shall I encore or get on my bike

Either way, I've done myself proud

As, at last I'm saying my words out loud